Thursday, June 17, 2010

Sigh ...

It's 9 p.m. "Dex's Time." I know my little boy is alone in a crib in a hot orphanage in southeast China, and I'm just plain bummed about it this morning.
I know there are millions of kids alone, hungry, lonely, sad around the world, and that's one reason we are honored to be able to bring one child into our family to love on. But, once I've seen his face, it becomes so much more real to me. It's not a faceless, far-away issue anymore.
One morning this week, the kids were all fussing about who wanted what for breakfast, and I couldn't help but think about the disparity between the three of them here not being able to choose oatmeal, cold cereal, or a fruit bar and wondering if Dex has even eaten today. As I brushed Abi's hair this morning, I wondered if anyone had held my little boy today at all, stroked his head or kissed his cheek.
I want so badly to hold him and show him a mother's love. Soon, I suppose. Just not soon enough.

7 comments:

Shannon said...

I am so sorry! I know our 10-day wait for Noah was the absolute longest 10 days of our life, I can't even imagine. But, thankfully he was with an AMAZING family who loved on him and cared for him very well -I am praying for the same thing for sweet Dexter.

Tonia Hobbs said...

May God comfort him until you get him in your arms. . .

Tonia Hobbs said...

Oh yeah, one more thing. . .

You will be his Heaven on Earth.

I.love.that.

tracy said...

Praying for you and Dexter during your time apart. May the time go fast!

Sharon said...

Oh.my.gosh! I'm literally fighting tears! I'm so ready to meet him and see him be part of your family! I just can't imagine how ready you must be! Remember that ALL of your kiddos are in God's hands! HE is protecting and loving Dex right now. Ok...tears...gotta stop! Love ya!

Valerie said...

I love that protective, loving, tender spirit you have towards Dex. What is even more awesome than that is that GOD gave it to you for all your kids and GOD himself first had that feeling for ....US. I love when we can glance an image of God through the mothering instinct He has given us. Beautiful. I truly hope the time goes by fast.
Val

Wendy Buzbee said...

Praying for you guys!